I always considered myself as a "Frustrated Song Writer". I even put it on my bio every time I get a chance. I love writing songs even if I'm not a superior guitar player, heck my girlfriend's even a better guitar player than me. I love playing with random words inside my head. I wanted to learn piano but you know guys will be guys and most of us guys are lazy when it comes to those things.
I started writing random verses of words when I was a Junior in high school. I thought they were poems but as the days passed by it became a song. The first problem I had that time was how to put those verses into songs. Since I had a guitar at home I just started strumming random chords then boom we have a song. Then I got deeper into it and I realized that maybe it's a talent. I got a little bit serious with it during my Senior Year in HS. I was so afraid of criticism of other people so I just decided to keep the songs that I wrote to myself. Not even my parents know about it. It was until one of my closest friend discovered my song "Heavy Heart" which became a little famous to my batchmates. They liked the song so it was really heart warming hearing them say good things about it. The best feeling was when the official YFC band sang it in the MEC event on Bahrain back in 2008. Sad to say that I wasn't there when they sang it but I'm happy that at least out of the 8 Billion people in this world someone actually appreciates my talent and my work.
Let's just say I got my heart broken so bad. It was like kicking me when I was down. 2 Birds in one stone.. Well I'll admit that yes I was deeply in love and was writing like a bunch of songs for this certain someone. She never got the chance to listen to any of them btw but it came to the point where I just gave up song writing cause I thought there was no point to continue it and such. ATL's The Girl's A Straight Up Hustler says every thing.. "I'm sick and tired of writing songs about you... This is it this is the END.."
After moving on from what happened.. I tried picking up the pen and write a song.. but it was hopeless. There's about 20 unfinished songs on my notebook. And I have no plans on finishing them. I tried everything. It's kinda funny that whenever I started to like a girl, I always give myself a challenge.. To end my so called "drought" with her.. (no not the sexual drought... SONG WRITING DROUGHT). I thought I was never gonna write a song again but that changed a month ago.
I was lying in bed getting ready to sleep after talking to my special someone then there's goes the words... So I picked up a guitar and I was recording whatever comes out of my head then a week later. I finally made it....... I wrote a song again!!!!!!! It was actually my Valentines gift to her and I'm so happy that she liked it. Even my dear father liked it.. Which was a little bit awkward cause I really didn't mean to share it with them but I'm a happy camper! :)
In case you're curious here's the link to the song.
I don't why I wrote this entry here on Random Blogging. I usually don't post personal stuff in here but I guess I wanted to share with you guys my story. There will always be a struggle in your life, all you have to do is face it cause running away from it won't do anything it's just like you're showing the world how weak you are.
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